Currently, we are all fixated on the question: "Where is MH370?"

The idea of a commercial airplane simply vanishing is fascinating, and scary. Scary, because it can happen to anyone of us.

No, we are not really disturbed by the various reports of suicide bombers in the Middle East. We are already conditioned to them. They have occurred so many times, in countries so unlike ours. But this - a seemingly ordinary aircraft, departing from our very own shores and just vanished without a trace - is terrifying.

I think the same about 9/11 too. Imagine going to your office as usual, with a cup of coffee in one hand and a briefcase in the other. Just like any other day, except a plane suddenly hits the building you are in.

It is tragedies that occur in day-to-day routines that scare the hell out of me. The world is smaller and stranger than we think.

I want to be 45kg again just to hate myself a little less.

your words

your words are 

like papercuts 

I don't know existed, 

until much later

when they sting.

the meanings behind them

rise up slowly from my stomach, 

like bile, 

like acid. 

i need to throw them up 

but i can't 

lest anyone else finds out. 

keep it down. keep it down. 

don't let others know 

that i am weak

that your words get to me 

that your words actually 

makes my heart bleed.