sure, sure... i passed both pharm analysis and primary care this time. but the results are less than satisfying. : (

sigh~

getting up after a fall

It is beneficial if you can develop a study schedule and stick to it.

That was what Dad said in his SMS. I know I am making my parents worried, with my spiralling marks and all.

For me, a failure or a near-failure is the thing that keeps me on my toes. It is the thing that spurs me on and drives me on, reminding me: "You cannot repeat that same mistake."

I know I am the kind to rest on my laurels, or being too overconfident. That's why a fall is sometimes a good thing.

Should really get my act together now.

definitely bad news after a good one

Haha! I woke up late today. Slept late, that's why. Not to mention, my hand has a mind of its own. Must have turned off the alarm clock. I can't find any other reason why I would be springing out of my bed (quite literally) at 7.50 am and subsequently reprimanded by BD, along with the others.
Thank god for 'herd immunity'!! This shows I really did learn something frm BD's lectures, eh?

He was all: "You should respect the lecturer, other students blah blah blah. I live north of the river, and I could be on time blah blah blah. You are all adults. Wake up early blah blah blah."

I felt like standing up and say it to his face: "At least we made an effort to get here and attend your lecture. We show up today, and that means we respect both you and the subject." But on second thought, I suppressed that desire to refute him. He was handing out our midsem papers, you see. Don't want to give a horrible impression in a test feedback session. :S

Hey ho! I got a decent mark for Immuno, all thanks to good old McWilliam. He was pretty lenient in marking. I am sure I passed this one. But then, I thought of Mol Pharm...

Ah well, I have gotten myself prepared to fail that one. Let's keep our minds focused on Primary Care and Pharmaceutical Analysis, shall we?

p/s: posted this on Xian Ni's blog by accident. I managed to delete it. Phew~~

I am Flow, Dilatant Flow.

I want to be a dilatant flow material, that becomes more and more viscous as more shearing stress is applied.

Okay, all the three tests before this SUCK! Or more like, I sucked in them.

I know, I haven't done much studying prior to sitting for the tests. And logically, I shouldn't be expecting much. In fact, I am priming myself for the fact that I am going to fail Immuno and Mol Pharm, with Mol Pharm being a definite fail because I didn't even complete half of the paper. >: (

Anyway, with that in mind, I just want to move forward. I think it is okay to cry a while, but not for too long. I cried for like 10 minutes when I found out my Pharmaceutics marks. And then, all the sadness was quickly watered down. I kept telling myself: "Hey, you shouldn't expect too much. You reap what you sow."

So what if I screwed the first half of the semester? There is still another half. I can change what has yet to happen, right? So cliche... I know. But I want to believe in them.

With the immuno test paper and my half-baked answers in front of me, I felt a twinge of guilt.

And then, I thought: 'If only I didn't watch animes or drama during the break..."

Wow. I never thought I would say that. Ever.

Chasing what is hopefully the possible

At the beginning of Week 1, the favourite catch-phrase among lecturers was: 'Keep on top of your workload'. 

My answer to that was: 'Isn't it okay for us to trail behind our workload just a little bit?'.

And now, with Week 4 looming, I realise I have lots of running to do.

"Depression is a cycle."

That was what Jia Mun used to say in her blog. I agree. After a few days of being in that vicious cycle, I could only weather the storm with a half-sane mind.

It is time to move on and get on with the workload of pharmacy course. The workload just doesn't wait for anyone. =.=lll

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On an unrelated note, the computer classified all my iLecture audio files as 'blues'.
So true, so true.