~Mimmy~

I went to the hospital today to get the medical checkup done. I was nervous. I didn't know why. I guess I was a bit paranoid that everything would turn out to be very horrible. I am nervous around people and couldn't communicate clearly with strangers. I am very bad socialising, always have been. So, I ended up being accompanied by my mom. It may sound embarrassing at first, since I have only 4 months to becoming a 20-year old young lady. Well, young I am, but lady I am not.

I was thankful for my mom because she is always there for me. I have so many things to say to her; saying things such as "I love you mom" but it was difficult to actually tell her in person. In the hospital, she helped me locate the places I should go to get the tests done. I was practically tagging along. When I nearly fainted after having done my blood test, she was there for me. After the whole medical checkup was over, she bought breakfast for me. When I was sick during my final exam last November, she took care of me.

These are only one of the many things she had done for me. She may be a simple woman, but she was a great mom and a great lady. She is always friendly with people and kind and caring towards her family members. Her personality is one that I hope to emulate. Mimmy, I love you a lot. :p

Locked Out!

Yeah, I am locked out of the bedroom I had been sleeping in for the past week!! Help!!! Tukang kunci, where are you?!

It's like this: Around 8 pm after we had taken our KFC dinner, my brother found out that we were locked out of the master bedroom. Why? Somebody (I suspect it's me - I can't remember) accidentally banged the door against the wall and caused the doorknob to lock on its own... *pengsan*

How about keys then? Well, we tried every single key available in the house but there isn't any that fits. Amazingly, there are two keys which fit another door but not the one that is locked... talk about irony, people! And to rub salt to our wounds, we realized that there is a remote possibility that the right key could be inside the room that we are locked out of because my family has a habit of keeping keys in the bedroom... *double pengsan*

So, we can't possibly call a tukang kunci because it's a Sunday, plus it's already at night. So, we (mom, brother and I) are going to sleep in the living room tonight. Well, we could sleep in the other two rooms in the house, but I have no idea why my mom mooted the idea to bunk in the living room. The worst thing out of this whole incident is that my beloved blanket and pillow are locked in the room. And, we might be buffet dinner for mosquitoes - yuck!

But on the bright side, I get to watch tv until I doze off - although that is the only good thing I can ever think of right now...

Moral of the story: Don't bang the door unnecessarily!

Grand Dinner?

Been getting emails from ausmat 19's yahoo group about the inevitable Grand Dinner...
Do I even need reminders about that?
I am kinda regretting my decision to go to the dinner. Knowing myself, I would rather waste the RM100 than attend a probably mindless function.
But I already made up my mind a few months ago. After all, most of my classmates will be there.

*sigh*... but what should I wear? I don't have any dress and I am not going to spend my precious money on something as trivial as a dress. I think I am going to turn up in baju kurung, the same one I wear to class on "Baju Kurung Monday" and "Baju Kurung Friday".

Anyone with me?

I'm hooked on...

the soundtrack for anime "NANA". This anime has some of the best ending and opening themes I have ever heard! My favourite is "A Little Pain" by Olivia. She provided the singing voice for the character Reira in the anime. Totally awesome! Currently downloading them like crazy!! Kyaaa~~

<<-- That's Olivia getting into her element... totally cool~~!!

And not to mention, Toki wo Kakeru Shoujo (The Girl Who Leapt Through Time) aka Tokikake. Totally cool movie. The characters are animated plainly but the enormous amount of details for this movie is mind-boggling! The animation is very good! And I like the two songs featured in this movie: Garnet and Kawaranai Mono, both by Hanako Oku. She has such sweet voice but I have one complaint: her songs are hard to sing!!!

<<--- Makoto, the main character, literally leaps when she needs to time travel. Think it's fun? Watching her do it makes me go "Ouch!" each time...

SACE exams...

... is finally over!!! The super-hellish days in Ausmat has come and gone! Honestly, it wouldn't be that bad if I hadn't come down with a super-bad-recurring fever and terrible cough.

The first two papers - ESL and Physics were terrible enough without the illness. Then came Tuesday night, the inevitable dawned on me. My throat felt ticklish. And then painful. I remember telling myself, 'This is not good.' But I continued studying in the study room anyway. On Wednesday, my predictions came true. My head was dizzy and hazy and I couldn't even walk straight. The worst thing was: THE NEXT PAPER IS MATH!!! I remember sleeping early that night - 10pm, even earlier than my roomie Lee Kuan - at the expense of the next day's ultra-important paper which is Maths (=.= lll).

I was so afraid that I will die during the exams that I went back to TI on friday, so that my parents could nurse me back to health. It was a tough decision to make, because I couldn't study at home. Too many distractions and I would be busy sleeping at home because of the stupid fever. At least, in Akasia, I could study - with so many comrades around me. Anyway, I was back at home and one of the first things I had to do when I reached TI was, of course, make a visit to the doc. The doctor took my temperature and it was 39.6 degree Celcius! Damn high lah dude! The doc said I had an infection. So, during the weekends my parents treated me like a princess - a very sick princess, that is. They would touch my forehead and my palm to gauge my temperature whenever they see me - it was a strange, strange experience.

My diet for the next few days consist of purely water and bread. In fact, I ate bread from friday to wednesday morning. Talk about being famished! I can even wear my jeans tighter than usual! Well basically, guys, don't attempt to be sick during exams 'cos it will rob you off your energy to study until late at night. I was so afraid of my own fever that I slept early every single day aroung 10.30pm even though I would rather burn the midnight oil and study Bio&Chem the whole night long. So, if you see me around dispensing the advice 'Take care of your health during exams', I am NOT kidding.

Less Than A Week Left...

and here i am reading (online) the quotes from Criminal Minds. The biggest mistake i have done so far (apart from deciding to while my time away during my break in TI) is to come back here in the first place. I can't study, 'cos it's full of temptations everywhere. Even the old couch looks comfy... *yawn*. I haven't studied anything and yet i consistently watch TV all the time. Looks like a repeat of SPM days... *deja vu*....
bye guys and good luck - whoever you are - in this (crazy) exam season. I don't expect myself to update this thing until after the finals. Ciao!

Roller coaster ride

I feel really sad this week. People around me may not notice but I tried to hide everything inside. This week is one of those times in my life that I feel utterly worthless - so worthless that I feel like a failure. Every single second I could see myself near the window or something, ready to jump and let go.

Damn it! Damn it! Damn it! Damn myself! Why didn't I work hard enough for my trials? The English letter was returned to me today and guess how much I got? A meagre 10/20!!! I don't remember seeing that type of marks in any of my English paper in my whole freaking life. Oh yeah, more surprises coming up. My physics paper was returned to me too and I only got a stupid-less-than-everyone-else 73%. Even the friend whom i helped in physics before the test, scored 10 marks higher than me. What a total failure. When a friend asked about my marks and I answered truthfully, he could not believe me. The hell?! Why do I even need to lie to you? I see no benefit in that. If lying to the whole world about my marks could make me feel better, yeah, I would do it. But heck, I know I can't lie to myself.

And I dread the coming finals. It's only 3 weeks away and I haven't started on a single thing. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time, and make sure I memorise every single thing in the book. The thing is, I can't. The things cannot be undone anymore - these are the words I comfort myself with every single minute. I hope i could feel better and perform better in the finals.