Sometimes I wonder: did I make a right decision by accepting the scholarship?
I know, when people out there hear this, they will go: "This girl doesn't know what she's got!" with disapproval shown on their faces.
But they are never in my position, so they will never know how I feel.
There are times when I feel like breaking away from what I know and just do what my heart thinks is right. Doing what I would like to do.
By accepting the scholarship, I have let go of this important part of me that I could never gain again.By accepting the scholarship, I would have to dedicate my life studying, learning and becoming a pharmacist for a good ten years to come.
I would have to forgo some interests that I previously wished to pursue. A dream that would only remain a dream, unless I could really spend some time to nurture it.
But circumstances now would not allow it. I find that I have less time to pursue my interests; pharmacy is a demanding course.
At times when I feel like a failure at labs and other pharmacy-related stuff, I wonder if I had made the right choice. But now, thank god for making this girl a simpleton - who simply accepts what comes her way.
I now enjoy some parts of the course, mostly because I love to learn (but hate to study).
I have finally become at peace with this choice. :)
Glad you can take it from another point of view. :)
ReplyDeleteyou know, i feel the same...
ReplyDeletebut now that the decision has been made, there's no choice but to follow through.
stay strong and may you grow to love the course greatly in years to come! =)
I'm sure you'll develope a love for your course and your profession as you continue to learn more about it. Its a field of lifelong learning, and I'm pretty certain you can find your niche in it soon enough...
ReplyDeleteGlad to hear things are turning out alright. =)