My Song

I was in Hollis theatre, waiting for biology lecture to start when I began to realise the meaning of the song that I was listening to on my phone.


Maybe I'd be better on my own
No one ever seems to understand me
It's easier for me to be alone
But there's still a piece of me that feels so empty


I've been all over the world
I've seen a million different places
But through the crowds and all the faces I'm still out there looking for you
Oh


Where are you now
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance
(What is the chance)
Of finding you out there
Or do I have to wait forever


I write about the things I'll never know
But I can't find a moment just to slow down
It makes me think I'll never have the chance to figure out
(To figure out)
What it's all about
(What it's all about)
So tell me what it's all about 'cause


Where are you now
(Where are you now)
I'm trying to get by with never knowing at all
What is the chance
(What is the chance)
Of finding you out there
Or do I have to wait forever


Yeah
La da da da da da da da
Oh
Ooh
Ooh


Where are you now
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all and i still don't know
Where are you now
(Where are you now)
I'm trying to get by with never ever knowing at all
What is the chance
(What is the chance)
Of finding you out there
Or do I have to wait
Or do I have to wait
Or do I have to wait forever


Ooh
Ooh
Yeah


-Where are you now? By Michelle Branch-

The most ironic thing is that I have listened to this song so many times before, without realising what it meant – until that very moment in the lecture theatre. And it describes exactly how I feel.

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I have been writing about it, thinking about it, dreaming about it, looking for your face everywhere. Sometimes I feel I shouldn’t because I am still trying to find my place in this world, and because I am loved by my family and friends. I should feel blessed.


But I am neither greedy nor desperate... because this heart of mine remains empty.


So, where are you now?