my love philosophy

I thought it was just another phone call from Dad. But when he passed the call to Mom, the flow of conversation changed – even though at that point in time, I didn’t know.

“In your uni, there are lots of boys and girls, right?” she asked.
“Errr… yeah?” I replied. Isn’t that obvious, Mom? I thought to myself.
“Go on and make more friends. From there, get a boyfriend,” she said.

i was shocked. couldn’t breathe. my mom giving me THE TALK. i never expected this! that is the very last thing i want to hear from her.

i am feeling the pressure from my peers already. one by one, they are heading down to the dancefloor with their partners, waltzing along to the summer music while i stand near the refreshment table, sipping my drink and watching from the sidelines. that is why i don't need Mom to say the obvious.

I would be lying if i say i don't want a boyfriend. who doesn't? but these things need time. and i am one who believes in fate. i probably already have my mind all screwed up by fantasies of 'prince charming' and 'the one'. that is precisely why i am waiting. but logically speaking, i don't need someone special because my life has been 'so far, so good' without him.

i don't need a guy to complete my life. but if he could colour my life even more, that would great. right now, i just want to focus on the things important to me - my family, friends, studies. i just want to seek happiness in my own little ways, at my own pace. happiness lies within me, not with someone else.

ps: i am not sure if i wrote stuff like this on my blog before. that goes to show how bad my memory is. if by chance that is the case, i should really give myself a good slap. :P